hey....

so sorry to ghost you all lately. miss you all and miss discussions!

first.. my phone was dying. got 'new' (same ) phone. then computer quit. mother board short awesome whatever. bought a refurb and had it checked out. just got it today. awesome.

but in between that my mom died. and going through it. i have to be the 'older responsible one' and make wise decisions. its just alot.

but on the plus side my husband has been awesome. he even worked with me and the hospice nurses to 'watch her' with a full time schedule. im sad that i made the right choice to choose hospice in her own house on her own terms. i wasnt expecting it to be this soon. but yet i knew and was bracing for impact.

and of course my work schedules have been 45-55 hrs on average. i did take a few days off right after but its better to stay busy. the bills dont pay themselves! i was able to get a reasonable lawyer that specializes in estate planning. now the hard parts begin. i just knew i couldnt do it alone.

either way, i just wanted to say hi. and that i will try to be on more. its just 2 months of madness or so of worth being busy until it drops off again.

any vendor that i got 'new stuff from.. BKN and kratom one.. i promise to still write a proper review. just lately my mind and time has been preoccupied. and since im juggling slot i dont have many 'clean' days where i take only kratom. its been a herbal concoction of anti anxiety and pain herbs to keep it moving.

on a side note ladies, i had gotten magnolia for my husband. its mine now. helps with anxiety and above all hot flashes. at least for me. cause working in a kitchen with a mask on and a hot flash comes is just so much fun!

anyways .. rambling. love you all and everyone is greatly missed. like not seeing family in a while!